Be Inspired, not Frustrated

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Be Inspired, not Frustrated

Wow, so much has been going on, where do I start? I have had some lovely realizations that have been so beautiful and so helpful. On thing I realized is that I am going to be inspired by humans instead of frustrated. I am not often frustrated, but I want to shift this energy. What I realized is that my beloved hubby, and many men to be frank, just do what they want without considering other folk around them. Not in a mean kind of way but just because they can. I know I have accommodated this over my life. As a woman of my generation, I learned to accommodate and compromise and bend to the will of the man in the house. But if we say this to them, they are appalled and aghast because they think they compromise a lot. I laugh……and it is all good……I have learned to speak up for myself more. AND it is really my own fault if I don’t get what I want, and what brings me joy because I have to SPEAK IT!

A great example was my birthday this year. I realized after the fact that I did what I thought my hubby would like to do. AND I had a birthday that did not bring me a lot of joy. Oh well! Lesson learned. Then as I have been watching how my beloved hubby does his birthday, I am filled with awe and I am so inspired. He said what HE wanted and we did it. That is awesome! Thank you so much for inspiring me, honey bunny!

So I am learning and growing even at the crazy ass age of 61! Sometimes it takes some effort for me to speak up. I have also done some great boundary setting this year. It feels awesome. It took a lot of work and effort and angst to do that but I am so much happier now. I was living with something that I let give me a lot of grief and frustration and not a lot of joy. It is much better now.

What do The Beans have to say to this?

The Beans

Hey Sadhu! You are rocking it, sweetie…….this was a HUGE and very IMPORTANT realization for you to have. SO important. This will change your life to the better…..and it was already great! We are so proud of you!!! Stick to it……Human men are slightly clueless about their privilege and white men are even more clueless about their privilege. AND that is okay. Things are shifting……more and more humans are speaking out and speaking up and SPEAKING! YAY! We are so excited about the shifting going on and although things look a little bleak (a little you say????!!!!????) there is good shit happening. Keep the faith. Hold the line. Keep speaking up when you feel called. Tell your ma, tell your pa…….Keep on the joy snail trail of love…….this stuff that appears immovable and hopeless is NOT. Things are SHIFTING big time!

We love you and are here for you!




Wishy-Washy Won’t Work

Be in our full on joy-FULL selves!!

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When it comes to embodied enlightenment, suble doesn’t work.  Why?  Well, because real change comes only at the heels of disruption.  When our lives are traumatized.  We have all had that wake up call, some more unceremoniously than others.

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What Have I Learned This Year?

Blog post 9-2-18

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What Have I learned this Year? (so far)

Fall is such a great time for new starts and realizations of what has been achieved over the summer months……..I had some lovely realizations with help from a lovely group of kindreds on a beautiful blog that I follow by my friend, Maria Chambers.

Check it out. A wise woman and lovely friend.

  • Boundaries……they can be moved and shifted…..they don’t have to be the same ALWAYS and FOREVER!
  • Sometimes you just need to have a big old tantrum… shift energies. I had 3 this year and 2 were with hubby…..helped tremendously….even if I felt a little embarrassed. Unplanned….just coming out. One of the tantrums was with a committee I am on. I was doing WAY TOO MUCH (ha–boundaries anyone? taking on too much? heehee) and I was resentful. They let me do too much because I am super fast and efficient… basically I DID it to me. Now they are doing a lot more and we are ALL having more fun. I had to learn to let go and ask for help! (see below.)
  • The more I love, honor and respect myself, the more others reflect that back at me…..including (especially?) my dearest hubby. Now I know this seems super obvious but this was a big one for me to get.
  • I learned that as an Empath, I am a transmuter of energy. This is part of my soul’s path. So, now instead of trying to block what is coming at me or around me, I let it come through and then push that magical button, as though I am a garbage disposal, transmuting that energy.
  • WE are like snails leaving a trail of xxxxxxxx…do I want to leave a trail of joy or of anger or of frustration? So, I am starting a joy epidemic. #joyepidemic Not to deny feelings, but to let them flow through…..taking care of me and doing what brings ME absolute joy joy joy……..just call me the Warrior Goddess of Joy. The title came to me a few years ago…….still getting it, eh?
  • It’s absolutely OKAY to ASK for help and love and support!!!!! WOW, this was big. I thought I had to do it all myself….and I am super fucking efficient and fast fast fast……so why would I need to ask anyone for help when I am so good at doing it all myself? heehee…..jokes on me. ha! My honey is really great about helping me with this one. He says to me, “you’re retired, why are you so stressed out?” He is really great about SO MANY things!
  • Dancing more more more……
  • Laughing more more more…..
  • Cultivating more silly silly silly……..
  • AND loving more more more……
  • Here I am at 61 years of age (those are just the numbers, by the way) and I realized that I am a mega OVER-ACHIEVER! HA! Cracks me up. I said to my honey one day, “I guess I am tightly wound.” He said, “you think?” heehee…….so the realization is We can learn new shit about ourselves ALL the time…….
  • My path is all about joy and gratitude. #joyepidemic #wallowingingratitude #cultivatesilly

The Beans say:

Oh dearest Sadhu, you get it……these are super important realizations. YAY for you! We are shaking our purple sparkly pom poms in your honor. We are holding a parade in your honor……and for all those beings who are on their path, in other words, everyone. Now, keeping in mind, everyone is ON their path…..but many are following what they THINK they SHOULD do, many are following their family paths, many are following what is the society path……..NOT everyone feels that they can follow their JOY PATH! Keep up the excellent example, oh Warrior Goddess of Joy, of starting your joy epidemic…….oh yes! Oh yes! Many will be and are inspired by you……and many will not get it at all…..There are many humans out there who really get a lot of juice (joy?) from a sad and angry and depressed path……and that is ok. This is all an inside job for EACH HUMAN. You can only DO YOU!

We love you to the stars and back and all the planets and all the asteroids and all the grains of sand and all the particles of dirt and all the ants and worms and birds and bees…….Ha! We knew that would make you laugh. xoxoxoxo


Behold The Light

Oh yes! Guiding our own light……… #wallowingingratitude #joyepidemic #cultivatesilly

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The Light quotient is high on the planet.  Everyone is feeling it in their own way.  Those of us on the accelerated path feel it, and although it can be uncomfortable at times, we at least know its purpose. The light is designed to disrupt.  It permeates everything.  It brings to the surface all the stuff that has been hidden, and that has been unloved.

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Happy Birthday to Yogiji!

Blog Post 8-26-18

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Happy birthday to Yogiji!

I love how I get a feeling that I am supposed to write a blog post and I have NO IDEA what I am going to write about…….and that is how it is today. When I stood here to start writing, I realized that I wanted to acknowledge my spiritual teacher who passed many years ago, Yogi Bhajan. We called him Yogiji. Today would have been his birthday. He would have been 89. He passed into another dimension back in 2004. I wanted to say that although I did not follow the Sikh path as strictly in his later years, I feel that the path of Kundalini Yoga and Sikhism saved my life. * AND I have to attribute that to him.

I did not have a close relationship to him; I mostly admired him and listened to him from afar. I was a good Sikh during the years of 1974-1988. I followed all the rules and they helped me so much. AND these rules helped me to cultivate my own hearing of my inner voice. Which then lead me to stop wearing a turban. * My childhood and growing up were chaotic at best and horrible at worst. * And finding the Sikh path for me back in 1973 when I was 15 was a miracle and connection to the family of my heart.

When I stopped wearing a turban, I called myself a Reform Sikh after being an Orthodox one for so many years. * I still did many Sikh things. I still chant gurbani every day of my life. I wear a kara. I recite parts of Japji every day. I still considered myself a Sikh.

I love it that I am connected and re-connected with my many orthodox Sikh and reform Sikh friends. Facebook is a beautiful avenue for that. I am so grateful for all that I have and all that I AM. AND I attribute this to my beautiful spiritual path, which officially started, for me, with Yogiji.

Let’s talk to The Beans and whoever else wants to come out and play about this.

Hello and Sat Nam and a big wahe guru to you all! We are The Beans, which today includes Guru Nanak, AA Michael and Michael J Lincoln (Narayan Singh) and Mother Mary.

Oh yes, Sadhu, we love your tribute and acknowledgment of your official start on your spiritual path. It was May 4, 1975 that you moved into the ashram. What a joy and release and comfort that was for you. You took your first Kundalini yoga class a couple of years before that. We want to applaud your courage in leaving your mother’s home while still in high school. We want to applaud your courage in wearing a turban to high school. As you like to say, you found out right away who your true friends were. This act of becoming a Sikh, did indeed save your life, as you well know and acknowledge. We just want to reinforce and affirm. Even though your beloved does not really understand and there are many in fact who do not understand, that is ok. That is fine. It just does not matter if ANYONE else in the entire world gets it, because YOU DO. AND that is the most important thing.

How you do your path is very individual to you and is really no one’s business but your own. We consider you an excellent Sikh. You are a chanting master, and Japji has been your constant companion for the past 40 years. We like your inklings of feeling that you want to share some chanting with folks……and chant with folks. We feel that it could be very powerful to teach a class or a one time workshop or a meetup group might work well. It would be fun and uplifting for you and for many to have this connection and avenue to uplift and bring joy. Remember the snail trail of energy. Holding a chanting class/gathering would really rock that snail trail. You could use your harmonium, if you wanted. It is a matter of bringing together humans in upliftment. You uplift yourselves and therefore the world. You leave that snail trail of joy and harmony. These efforts, however small, bring joy to the whole world. Bit by bit, inch by inch, foot by foot……change is coming. The world is on fire and healing all at the same time. Do what you feel called to do. Your small steps for humankind.

Many blessings upon you. We thank you for your service to the world. AND right now for you that can mean just breathing. Bringing joy as you are you!

WE love you, Sadhu, and we love you all!!

The Beans

Yogi Bhajan back in November 1988. A fun meditation to de-stress. Enjoy!

* There are much longer stories to tell about these time periods. But not for today.


Here I am at about age 19.

Snail Trail

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Snail Trail

The Beans kindly reminded me today about the snail trail. They taught me that we all leave a snail trail. We all leave our joy, sadness, anger, etc in our wake. So, today they reminded me to visualize my snail trail of joy. As the Warrior Goddess of Joy, I do, for the most part, leave a snail trail of joy…….But sometimes I get caught up in daily stuff……I know that I often do TOO MUCH! My beloved hubby reminds me and helps me to stop doing that…….I do want to be helpful, but I get caught up in helping TOO MUCH. And then I get exhausted. Many of my friends are doing a lot in their lives, especially the ones who are not retired. BUT I don’t have to do what they do. I don’t need to help them with their lives. They have chosen their lives…..this goes for my friends who I adore and love spending time with. I don’t need to DO more to be a FABULOUS and USEFUL being. No No No……….So, I am cultivating my snail trail of joy joy joy and not exhaustion and not depression and not anger and not shame……..I don’t need any of that. I am not saying that feelings are bad. They most certainly are not. They are relevant. They are beautiful. And I can acknowledge them and let them go. What do The Beans say?

The Beans

Hello darlings……yes, this is for all of you……or many of you….or maybe just a few. Hahahahaha… doesn’t really matter because the ones this will speak to will read it and love it. And it is all worth it. AND of course we are speaking to the Sadhu. Oh dearest ones…..stop with the DOING DOING DOING already……You can let that shit go. YOU are beautiful and worthy and amazing and wonderful EXACTLY AS YOU ARE RIGHT NOW! Without doing a thing.

It is ok, we can hear you thinking, Sadhu. We will say it as many times as needed……Wash, rinse, repeat. You are not to doubt yourself……remember that your path has been a path of seva, service. This was hammered into you from an early age. You did not hear it from your ma and pa, but it was expected that you TAKE CARE OF THEM ALL. And then you became a Sikh. You found your tribe, your family. AND then it WAS hammered into you loudly……SEVA! Time to serve. Service is where it is at. Serve serve serve…..don’t hesitate. AND since you are no slouch about understanding……YOU GOT IT! SERVE………at the expense of yourself. At the expense of your wants and needs and health.

OKAY! Time to stop. You have served! You have served and served and served. And in the middle of all that serving you created a beautiful man and woman who are your son and daughter. You are like the MEGA server. You are a master server. Stop, darling, stop.

We want you to cultivate more silly. More joy. More fun. More fun and silly with your honey. We want you to serve YOU! This can be your first thought. Does it serve me? Does it bring me joy? Does it cultivate silly?

See your snail trail of joy and silly…….Your snail trail of service to you, your beautiful self.