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Blog Post 8-26-18
My Life as a Sadhu
Happy birthday to Yogiji!
I love how I get a feeling that I am supposed to write a blog post and I have NO IDEA what I am going to write about…….and that is how it is today. When I stood here to start writing, I realized that I wanted to acknowledge my spiritual teacher who passed many years ago, Yogi Bhajan. We called him Yogiji. Today would have been his birthday. He would have been 89. He passed into another dimension back in 2004. I wanted to say that although I did not follow the Sikh path as strictly in his later years, I feel that the path of Kundalini Yoga and Sikhism saved my life. * AND I have to attribute that to him.
I did not have a close relationship to him; I mostly admired him and listened to him from afar. I was a good Sikh during the years of 1974-1988. I followed all the rules and they helped me so much. AND these rules helped me to cultivate my own hearing of my inner voice. Which then lead me to stop wearing a turban. * My childhood and growing up were chaotic at best and horrible at worst. * And finding the Sikh path for me back in 1973 when I was 15 was a miracle and connection to the family of my heart.
When I stopped wearing a turban, I called myself a Reform Sikh after being an Orthodox one for so many years. * I still did many Sikh things. I still chant gurbani every day of my life. I wear a kara. I recite parts of Japji every day. I still considered myself a Sikh.
I love it that I am connected and re-connected with my many orthodox Sikh and reform Sikh friends. Facebook is a beautiful avenue for that. I am so grateful for all that I have and all that I AM. AND I attribute this to my beautiful spiritual path, which officially started, for me, with Yogiji.
Let’s talk to The Beans and whoever else wants to come out and play about this.
Hello and Sat Nam and a big wahe guru to you all! We are The Beans, which today includes Guru Nanak, AA Michael and Michael J Lincoln (Narayan Singh) and Mother Mary.
Oh yes, Sadhu, we love your tribute and acknowledgment of your official start on your spiritual path. It was May 4, 1975 that you moved into the ashram. What a joy and release and comfort that was for you. You took your first Kundalini yoga class a couple of years before that. We want to applaud your courage in leaving your mother’s home while still in high school. We want to applaud your courage in wearing a turban to high school. As you like to say, you found out right away who your true friends were. This act of becoming a Sikh, did indeed save your life, as you well know and acknowledge. We just want to reinforce and affirm. Even though your beloved does not really understand and there are many in fact who do not understand, that is ok. That is fine. It just does not matter if ANYONE else in the entire world gets it, because YOU DO. AND that is the most important thing.
How you do your path is very individual to you and is really no one’s business but your own. We consider you an excellent Sikh. You are a chanting master, and Japji has been your constant companion for the past 40 years. We like your inklings of feeling that you want to share some chanting with folks……and chant with folks. We feel that it could be very powerful to teach a class or a one time workshop or a meetup group might work well. It would be fun and uplifting for you and for many to have this connection and avenue to uplift and bring joy. Remember the snail trail of energy. Holding a chanting class/gathering would really rock that snail trail. You could use your harmonium, if you wanted. It is a matter of bringing together humans in upliftment. You uplift yourselves and therefore the world. You leave that snail trail of joy and harmony. These efforts, however small, bring joy to the whole world. Bit by bit, inch by inch, foot by foot……change is coming. The world is on fire and healing all at the same time. Do what you feel called to do. Your small steps for humankind.
Many blessings upon you. We thank you for your service to the world. AND right now for you that can mean just breathing. Bringing joy as you are you!
WE love you, Sadhu, and we love you all!!
Yogi Bhajan back in November 1988. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6TtoRMa8HL4 A fun meditation to de-stress. Enjoy!
* There are much longer stories to tell about these time periods. But not for today.
Here I am at about age 19.
My Life as a Sadhu
The Beans kindly reminded me today about the snail trail. They taught me that we all leave a snail trail. We all leave our joy, sadness, anger, etc in our wake. So, today they reminded me to visualize my snail trail of joy. As the Warrior Goddess of Joy, I do, for the most part, leave a snail trail of joy…….But sometimes I get caught up in daily stuff……I know that I often do TOO MUCH! My beloved hubby reminds me and helps me to stop doing that…….I do want to be helpful, but I get caught up in helping TOO MUCH. And then I get exhausted. Many of my friends are doing a lot in their lives, especially the ones who are not retired. BUT I don’t have to do what they do. I don’t need to help them with their lives. They have chosen their lives…..this goes for my friends who I adore and love spending time with. I don’t need to DO more to be a FABULOUS and USEFUL being. No No No……….So, I am cultivating my snail trail of joy joy joy and not exhaustion and not depression and not anger and not shame……..I don’t need any of that. I am not saying that feelings are bad. They most certainly are not. They are relevant. They are beautiful. And I can acknowledge them and let them go. What do The Beans say?
Hello darlings……yes, this is for all of you……or many of you….or maybe just a few. Hahahahaha…..it doesn’t really matter because the ones this will speak to will read it and love it. And it is all worth it. AND of course we are speaking to the Sadhu. Oh dearest ones…..stop with the DOING DOING DOING already……You can let that shit go. YOU are beautiful and worthy and amazing and wonderful EXACTLY AS YOU ARE RIGHT NOW! Without doing a thing.
It is ok, we can hear you thinking, Sadhu. We will say it as many times as needed……Wash, rinse, repeat. You are not to doubt yourself……remember that your path has been a path of seva, service. This was hammered into you from an early age. You did not hear it from your ma and pa, but it was expected that you TAKE CARE OF THEM ALL. And then you became a Sikh. You found your tribe, your family. AND then it WAS hammered into you loudly……SEVA! Time to serve. Service is where it is at. Serve serve serve…..don’t hesitate. AND since you are no slouch about understanding……YOU GOT IT! SERVE………at the expense of yourself. At the expense of your wants and needs and health.
OKAY! Time to stop. You have served! You have served and served and served. And in the middle of all that serving you created a beautiful man and woman who are your son and daughter. You are like the MEGA server. You are a master server. Stop, darling, stop.
We want you to cultivate more silly. More joy. More fun. More fun and silly with your honey. We want you to serve YOU! This can be your first thought. Does it serve me? Does it bring me joy? Does it cultivate silly?
See your snail trail of joy and silly…….Your snail trail of service to you, your beautiful self.
My Life as a Sadhu
Hmmmm…….My beloved honey is off on a 4 day bicycle trip and I miss him and I also am relishing the quiet and my ability to do whatever I want……Does that make me a bad person or a bad wifey? NO! But I feel a bit guilty since I have been really looking forward to this time alone. AND I know that I can cultivate that when my beloved is here……Still figuring that out. He has even encouraged me to meditate more, take more baths, read more, etc. Why don’t I? For some reason when he is here I feel that I must be paying rapt attention to him at all times. OY! WHY????????? Because that is what society says a good wifey must do, right? How about what I need to do for me? I realized that I was exhausted by trying to be a good wifey. AND when I get into those kind of habits, then it becomes expected, right? I can set myself times where I am not available……wow! What a concept. This reminds me of when my children were little and I would read in my bath. It was my sacred time. But I never closed the door, so my children and their dad would feel free to come in and use the bathroom and talk to me, etc. I remember talking to my counselor about it and she said, why don’t you close and lock the door? WHOA! WHAT????!!!!????? Close and lock the door? Unfathomable!!!
Aha! I get it…….the more I buy into the old 3D ways of being a good wifey, the more my honey buys into it. AND the more attention he demands…..I need to respect my space so he will, also. WOW!!!! This is huge!
You bet this is HUGE! You were wanting to blame him for being so demanding and at times exhausting…….nope! This is all on you, sister! We don’t mean to sound mean, we just mean to sound very pointed and point out to you that you do control your world. You do have the means and the ability and the strength to create exactly what you want and when you want it and take care of you!!!!! YES!!!! Create your space EXACTLY how you need it to be. Close the door. Announce meditation time. Announce writing time. Announce quiet time. You can do it! AND guess who will understand and get it??!! Yes, he will indeed. WE are happy that you went to the Cloud Council for this. AND we are giggling a bit as we know that you know that SO OFTEN it is MORE about YOU, than anyone else. RIGHT???!!!???!!! AND no, this does not mean you are a bad person. This is about you taking care of you and being completely unafraid to DO what you need to do, to ask for what you need. Oh yes! Oh yes!!!!
Cultivate your blissful solitude wherever you are. In your home when you are not actually physically alone. Take a walk. Walk to a park and take your book. Etc. Etc. Etc. YOU are super creative and will figure it out. Remember that your life is fucking awesome and it can become more so. WE love you to the ends of the universe. AND remember that your beloved hubby loves you that much and more.
Beautiful image by Shiloh Sophia http://www.shilohsophiastudios.com/
My Life as a Sadhu
I just had a birthday. 61!! 61!!!! How did that happen? AND today I feel exhausted. It was a super busy and crazy and fun day but it wore me out! What is up with that? And before anyone thinks or says, well you are getting old…..think again…..I am not. I think today is one of my granny days (see other blog post)…..mellow mellow mellow. AND that is ok. It is perfect. And I can do it. I can do whatever I want. But I do know that I think I did some things yesterday because of others’ expectations. Hmmmmmm……thus the exhaustion. Interesting…….Wow, when will I let go of that? I know it is much better for me than it used to be, but how interesting that on MY DAY…….I don’t seem to be able to do just what I want. I am not whining here……this is just my realization. My issue. My problem. All good. All healing. Taking a deep breath and asking for the download. 🙂
Ahhhhh dearest E, yes, that is one great realization to have. You chose to do things to please others, not to completely please yourself. That is not bad. That is not good. It just is. You are learning to take care of you. You have graduated and with honors as we compare the old you with the now you. AND right now you are working on your PhD for self care. AND that is one intense process…..You are in the midst of writing your dissertation and it is called, “My Life as a Sadhu”. That is one of the reasons you feel called to blog right now. AND we are with you every step of the way. This is a long fought letting go process for you. Your children are launched, your parents are launched…..now let others launch. You know who we are talking about. IT IS NOT YOUR JOB TO TAKE CARE OF ANYONE, ANYMORE! We apologize for the yelling but YOU KNOW it is needed. You have been such a lovely caretaker and fabulous mother and daughter…….the whole world thanks you. Your children are amazing and miraculous and wonderful beings……..and your parents are what they are. There is nothing more for you to do in those areas. And obviously your relationship with your children is a most wondrous and supportive and loving one. Joy joy joy joy joy! You three are super blessed to have that and we must say that this is almost entirely to do WITH YOU!
Yes, remembering to breathe (E just took a deep breath), is important and integral to your thriving survival and radiance and sanity. Asking for the downloads is a great idea, also. The M and M’s are here! We are here to support you and love you ALWAYS……..WE ARE ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU! And please know that the archangels are also here for you. And you can invoke specific ones of us, as you feel called.
This is a message for all y’all……..We love you! If the message doesn’t make sense to you it is not for you. Love, The Beans, including the M&M
This is a photo I took of a place up the Columbia Gorge. Fairy Circle. Place of Peace.
Oh yes oh yes! #loveandjoyrevolution
Channeled by Brenda Hoffman for LifeTapestryCreations.com
Summary of Brenda’s August 10, 2018, channeled 15-minute “Creation Energies” show at BlogTalkRadio.com/brenda-hoffman: So many awakened the past few weeks that your role has become radiating joy as you walk through your creation door. Knowing your life is of freedom and ease will encourage you to become more childlike.
“Should You Go or Should You Stay?” is the title of last week’s “Brenda’s Blog” – her weekly channeled blog for LifeTapestryCreations.com.
Brenda’s “Creation Energies” show and “Brenda’s Blog” contain different channeled information.
Many of you are questioning the validity of our assertion a few days ago that you merely need to walk through the door when you are ready, and you will be in joy. Such is so for your life has not yet expressed itself in sparkling joy. In truth, your life may feel cumbersome, even painful.
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My Life as a Sadhu
How Old Am I Really?
Dearest humans—I don’t think I have been feeling agitated over the last few weeks with all the eclipses, etc. Perhaps a little but it moves swiftly away as I stay in my joy. Tomorrow is my 61st birthday which just sounds surreal. I am certainly NOT that old……at least in thought and body and feeling……I know the numbers are accurate as I was born on 8-13-1957 at 9:15 am Pacific time. This is true. I have seen the birth certificate. Ha! What is real? Do we buy into the numbers or do we go with the feeling of our deepest and highest selves? I say, Door Number Two! Yes, I am going with my amazing YOUNG feeling, Joy Filled self. That is my REAL self, my inner self, my soul. Don’t get me wrong, I have some sublime wisdom of all those years……I have done a lot of healing work over those years. AND, in some ways I am a completely different person than I was at age 18 or 25 or 33. AND I am sublimely grateful. I am wallowing in gratitude. YAY! Let’s see what The Beans have to say:
You are no number. Or numbers. You are infinite and timeless. You are ancient and you are young. Some days you are an old lady and some days you are a young whippersnapper. AND it is all perfect. It is all good. It does not matter. You are living your life in each moment by moment, because that is the way of New Earth……whatever dimension you like. 5D, 6D, 7D…….yes yes yes. So, some days you may want to be like a little granny and just sit and read, sew or knit or watch a movie. Some days you want to go out in the world and ride your bike, dance a lot, talk to people and eat yummy food. It is all perfect. There are no shoulds. There are no expectations from the angelic world, there may be some from the people around you, but you must GO YOUR WAY, TAKE YOUR PATH! We needed to shout that a bit so you would take it in. Don’t ever let others dictate to you what you must do.
Wallow in your beauty and wisdom. Wallow in your timelessness. Wallow in your love of life. Wallow in your strong body and great humor. Wallow in your loving relationships with those humans who get who you are. Wallow in your fabulous life and your loving spouse. #wallowingingratitude. Hee hee. We can use hashtags, too.
This message may be geared towards the Sadhu, aka Elizabeth, but it will be pertinent to those who get it. To those who need to read it.
So much love coming your way and we are shaking our pom poms with purple and teal and silver sparkles.